Hi! No one's looking at my blog naman, so I don't think anyone would mind if I rant here. It's just that, I feel like a walking contradiction. And a walking failure, as well.
Today was just... bad. I feel like I fail at everything, and I do not even deserve to utilize this planet's resources. This country does not deserve someone as apathetic as I am. My school does not deserve someone as stupid and lazy as I am. My classmates does not deserve someone as irresponsible and boring person like how I am. My roommates do not deserve someone who's very untidy and lazy and noisy as me. My friends do not deserve to be associated with the worst person that could ever have existed.
So anyway, today, a friend and I planned to do something to get some certain people realize what's in front of them that they refuse to acknowledge. But so far, it's failing.
Also, earlier, I went to walk with another friend from the Lower Years. I was kind of quiet (WOW) at that time, and it was really awkward when she talked to her previous classmates. But it was alright, I guess, because I got to know a few new people. But while we were walking, we suddenly caught up with this other friend of hers. And since then, I just talked like a sentence or so. Then it was just them. What's worse was that I was walking in the middle of them. I think it took me around 10 minutes before I got to talk. And it wasn't to them pa.
And I'm the worst. I really didn't understand anything in school today.
But at least, HomeRoom was fun. We had a 'speed dating' kind of activity. It was Arman who asked the questions, which were not-so-harmless, but not-so-personal either. And I feel kinda accomplished because I kind of kept up being a 'gentleman'. But I have to do it properly next time! And Mg. I really do feel like an outcast in every class I'm in. I feel like an outcast in general. Oh, how despicable I am.
I think if I were under Sir Montemayor's English class, my 'Yearbook entry' would be screwed-up, especially that I'm feeling extra heavy today. It would go like: Gillian is probably the most boring, most stupid, and most not-to-be-trusted person who ever went into Pisay. She likes messing with people who's not really that close to her, and she likes hearing stories about people -- a sign of a person with a low intellect. Apart from that, she has substandard grades and is barely making it every year. She can bore you with stories that would never fall upon your interest, and she would expect you to hear her out. She's really noisy, to the point that it's annoying.
That's a short one, but that's what I'll probably write.
